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October 31, 2005
Waiting...
I'm waiting with bated breath to see what happens today. My kids will be receiving a package from me, via UPS, and I'm wondering what their reaction will be.
On Friday, I sent them the remains of my freshly slaughtered pumpkin, wrapped up in the guise of pumpkin bread, pumpkin gooey butter cakes, and spicy roasted pumpkin seeds.
Prior to sending it, I requested their consent in an email. It was a tie. Two of them said yes, two said no. I'm hoping the two dissenters will take a bite of the gooeys and change their minds.
I really just hope they enjoy it and remember who I am. It has been a month and three weeks since I've seen them or talked to them. They refuse to have anything to do with me. So I'm hoping that a little home cooking will remind them of the man who cooked 90% of their meals, who made smoothies with them in the summer, Christmas cookies in the winter, and apple cider and pumpkin bread in the fall. I'm not going to let myself get too hopeful, though. I sent a homemade apple pie and some caramel apples three weeks ago. It didn't seem to change their attitude much. But it seems promising that they at least acknowledge the receipt of it, and that they told me they didn't throw it away. At least, I'm choosing to see it as promising. Even if it's not true, it certainly helps to believe it.
I really miss them.
| By newcity | 03:35 PM
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I really appreciate your blog. I love your honesty... When I was young, my mom was almost always there when I got home from school. I ignored her and acted like I didn't care at all, but if she wasn't there... man I acted like the sky was falling. Keep it up. As you know, the hardest thing about kids is their inability to show timely appreciation. "gee, thanks for changing my diaper, it was really starting to bother me!" "Wow, thanks so much for making me dinner, I would have starved with out you!" Maybe they're testing you, in which case you will obviously come through.
Posted by: Sember at October 31, 2005 09:14 PM
Thanks, Sember. I hope I do come through. And I hope it is just a test, not a permanent rift in our relationship. There is a lot more to the story, which I'll probably get around to writing about eventually.
I've been told by several people that there will be forgiveness in the end. Let's hope that they are all right.
Thanks for the encouragement.
Posted by: Jon (newcity) at November 1, 2005 07:12 AM
Life starts with a baby depending on its parents. The the teenage years come and they pull away trying to feel their independence and find who they are. For a parent, sometimes it is heartbreaking because suddenly you are not wanted and you think you are not important in their lives. Then they go away...and you think you have lost them. Even though you see them occassionally, you don't know them and you think you have lost them. Then God does the most amazing miracle and brings them back into your life again. And knowing them as an adult is just the best. Because even though you are their parent, you become their friend and really like them -- not just love them. I know because I did it to my parents, it happened to me and it will happen to you too. I have to believe that. So hang onto to that best friend, cause I thank God every day for her....and for you too--of course! Always try to find the positive in every situation, even though you don't understand the reason for what you are going through.
On another note -- I think maybe you should be a food critic for your local newspaper! Side job ya know! :)
Posted by: Jaybo's mom at November 3, 2005 08:27 PM
I don't know how well I'd go over as a food critic. The only criticism would, "mmmmm.....yummy!" At least that's positive, huh? Thanks, momma. I love you!
Posted by: Jon (newcity) at November 4, 2005 04:52 AM
